the end of the world as we know it.

I don't feel fine.
I feel crushed.
why Me?
Why now?
Why will her crushing burning knifing hatred of me never end?
she used to love me,
she prommised as long as we both shall live,
and now she has the unmitigated grinding gall to say that word which I dislike so much,
The word i don't believe in.
she pushes me away when i ask to go to therpy,
she uses every excuse to pull away and it hurts me like a fire.
she won't try and save fifteen years of the best time of my life.
My time with her has been the best,
she wants to end it,
it's like ending me.
She's killing me,
but not gently.
With a spoon so it hurts more.

so

I asked the rose when she would be departing Missery.
her response was Never.
I worry that she will never return home and am inconsoleable.
Wollowing in missery i prepare to go to work.

I continue to miss the perfection mark

this weekend I went 2-0-1 with epic avoidance battles against Vampire Counts, Lizardmen, and a draw by 2 models, arrrggghhh, against the hated daemons, so close and yet so far, tied for third, when will I break the glass cieling which holds me down. It is the same interviewing for a job, I go, and work so hard to get to my gosl, I know where I want to be and yet somehow never get to the desired destination. Hosted at the house this weekend classics like Ra, Formula De and BSG hit the table, Dorry brought the most delicious sandwiches from Larrys subs.
Working 7 days a week sucks.......

the end of the begining.

"darkness, imprissoning me all that I see, absolute horror." as I hung upside-down, glass, broken, wet blocking my right eye. Blood. Stuck, smoke, where? HELPLESS, dizzy, what was I doing? Trapped, what's holding me? tight against my chest and pain thickening inside and out. Unbuckle my seatbelt, fall heavily to the roof of my car. Struggle to get free, out cutting myself repeatedly metal plastic and glass. I don't feel anything only the sound of Mettalica "left me with life in hell." Crawling frantically out battered, bruised, spent
into open air, grass, rubber. Where? Clumsy, stumbling, out farther, Help?
It's afternoon, I remember, I think, So much for my hot date. I had a date. Ow. What was her name? Ow.
Tired, hot unconcious.

past his prime

I don't know whether or not I fully realize how much his existance is missed in my life. Without knowing it I have lost my fervre, and with it my dark awe inspiring hatred for all things mundane. In the moments that led to earth shattering metal grinding on concrete. I was distracted, much as i usually was by the body chemistry which, as usual gripped me unhaltingly.
Atention deficeit HA, I was never diagnosed, neither was my father before me. The OCD tendencies which ruled his life, guided him succesfully through 30 years of military service. For me I react violently to even small ammounts of sugar coarsing through my veins. Without it I feel calm, able to resist mood swings which would prevail unceasingly upon my frame. I feel as if my thinking is slowed. my thoughts are clear, unscattered, instead of 100 ideas racing around in my head, it seems hard to focus on more than one. I lose a part of me, but do I even want that part?
Growing up I would pen up rage at kids calling me Tub of Lard, Fat ass, Steam roller. A fist to the face of an unlucky taunter, followed by another and another, till over them I kneeled triumphantly not realizing as I'm pounding away that i am saying "die, die, die..."

INCURSION

Game Designers from GrindHouse Games, Who have created Secrets of the Third Reichan alternate reality WWII miniatures game with Nazi Zombiez, Werewolves, Soviet Werebears,Mech technology, psychic powers, Vampires and a whole lot of other cool stuff, have brought their first...
Boardgame
to the tables of Dragon's Lair.
We are talking about an Epic Demonstration Day with Door Prizez, Give aways and a chance to play the coolest new boardgame here first.
In the tradition of Space Hulk, HeroQuest, Talisman, Tanhauser, and Battle Cry. The most exciting thing to hit the table since Battlestar Galactica or even Power Grid.
Coming Soon: Incursion
Details on times and dates soon to follow!
-Michael Stone

Aggiecon, owlcon and chimeracon

Aggiecon is Feb 5-7
Owlcon is Feb 19-21
Chimeracon is April 8-10

likely only to be able to get to chimera con $20 in advance or 25. at the door for all three days.

8-15-10 the prices for individual days.

Jan 9, 2010

San Antonio Boardgames group was more than receptive to new blood. They were eager to learn new games and welcoming strangers into their homes. The group could benefit from some veteran gamers to teach new games. Definitely having people on hand who know their stuff is fantastic, one of the games (Monster Mayhem) took about an hour to get underway. Winners Circle, Settlers of Catan, Boomtown and Werewolves of Millers Hollow were all huge hits. I look forward to attending another of thse nights (as long as it's not too far a drive).