the end of the world as we know it.

I don't feel fine.
I feel crushed.
why Me?
Why now?
Why will her crushing burning knifing hatred of me never end?
she used to love me,
she prommised as long as we both shall live,
and now she has the unmitigated grinding gall to say that word which I dislike so much,
The word i don't believe in.
she pushes me away when i ask to go to therpy,
she uses every excuse to pull away and it hurts me like a fire.
she won't try and save fifteen years of the best time of my life.
My time with her has been the best,
she wants to end it,
it's like ending me.
She's killing me,
but not gently.
With a spoon so it hurts more.